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Saturday, January 24th, 2009
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I'm not going to be updating this journal anymore.
Instead, I started a friends-only journal for all my friends to see at http://bekahstargazing.livejournal.com ...
TO ALL MY READERS:
Go comment on my visible journal entry on that account for me to add you to my friends!!
THANK YOU,
BEKAH
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Thursday, August 7th, 2008
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I'm done with boarding school.
For good.
I ended Friday.
The end.
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I drove on the road in the rain last night. :3
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Yesterday was amazing.
Thank you SO much.
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Yesterday was the best day ever.
[This is for all those who aren't my friends--this is a public entry.]
He rocks my world.
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Thursday, February 21st, 2008
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| Subject: | FIRE?! |
| Time: | 11:43 am. |
| Mood: |  weird-feeling/shocked. | | Music: | "Creep" - Radiohead. |
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So...
My sister & I were home alone & somehow, somebody [probably me], unknowingly turned on the stove.
Just by a fraction of an inch around.
But turning it on that fraction of an inch around, turned it on HIGH.
Hannah saw smoke in the kitchen while we were in the family room, while I was eating my chicken nuggets I had previously made in the microwave.
Then, I came over and Hannah said "It's flaming!"
&, in fact, the pizza boxes on top of the stove were in flames.
Hannah said she knew how to use the fire extinguisher...
& so, when I suggested we call 911, she said no.
But it turns out she didn't know how to use the fire extinguisher.
So I called 911.
I probably sounded panicky beyond belief when I told them what was happening.
& so...
We rushed outside with Brooke, our dog, and I had nothing but a nightgown and under-sized Crocs of my mother's on.
She at least had clothing on, but no shoes.
It took a while for the fire fighters to get here, but they got here after probably 7 mins. or so... I was really scared for the pets we had left inside. I.E. the cats, the bird [who can't inhale smoke, for it's a *serious* health hazard], the chinchilla, and the gecko [who I wasn't worried about--she is in a sealed tank in a room that didn't get much smoke].
I was worried about how far the fire could've progressed.
The fire guys, when they got here, invited me to sit in the 'ENGINE' section of the fire engine, where it was nice and warm.
Turns out, the fire didn't progress much.It stayed contained to the pizza boxes on top of the stove, and later, a fire fighter explained about how good a location it was for the fire--the microwave above it is a non-flammable item, and therefore, the fire didn't progress to there.
I was so worried.
They opened up all the doors they could, and put a fan in front of the front door to blow all the smoke out.
The thing is that now, we can't find our two cats.
I'm scared they could've run out the doors while they were open.
The fire fighters said that they didn't see any cats run out of any of the doors, and so they're probably still somewhere in the house, hiding.
One fire fighter said that he saw a cat run into the living room [that we don't really 'live' in, & it's more of an instrument/display-of-pretty-things-room].
But the cat could've just as easily run out the back door in this room [the computer room] while it was opened, and nobody would've seen it.
I'm worried, now.
I went up & got jeans & socks after putting on my Nintendo sweatshirt-type-thing. So I'm warming up, but I'm still cold.
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Monday, February 18th, 2008
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So, my mom has a gallbladder infection.
Surgery may be involved.
And I'm worried.
Dan & I got into a huge fight earlier today. But it's calmed down, now.
That's all...
I may write more later.
Maybe. Maybe not.
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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
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Goin' back to school today.
On Friday, I forgot to tell you, we got a flash for my new camera [which I got three weeks ago or so]. This flash has wireless capabilities. So you can have it off the camera and have it still work, so you can position it anywhere you'd like. It's *wicked* cool.
HERE is an example of what it does. See how my face is lit up on the side, instead of in front, like if I were to use the on-board flash or the flash mounted on the camera? It's amazing.
Just amazing.
Anyway, back to what's pertaining to my current day:
I need to shower and such before I go to school so they don't force me to do it there.
I'll be getting back to my normal life... Which can be a good or a bad thing, if you think about it. Good, as, I'm not sick anymore. Bad, as, I have to go back to civilized school life. And school life sucks. A lot.
Anyway. Just wanted to update one last time before I showered and left.
See you next weekend, all.
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| Subject: | This Is It II |
| Time: | 9:31 am. |
| Mood: |  scared. | | Music: | I have the Trivia-a-Go-Go theme from Regis & Kelly in my head... How wonderful... |
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My last moments of freedom, spent on LJ and FA and e-mail.
We'll be leaving soon.
I'm so scared.
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Today is my last day of freedom for the next two to three weeks.
I'm getting in my last posts on forums I visit.
I've updated my art [drawing] site for the last time for weeks.
Man.
This is going to be hard.
I may update this journal tomorrow, possibly via VoicePost.
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Saturday, July 21st, 2007
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I want a minute to myself.
It's great seeing all my friends before I leave and all...
But I today I didn't get a minute alone.
First it was to Ashley's house for brunch.
The food was great.
The company was great.
She's one of my best friends ever, and I love hanging out there, but then she came over my house.
And then Dan called.
Of course, I had forgotten that we had made vague plans to see me tonight, possibly sleep over.
He didn't sleep over, but we just got him home 5 minutes ago.
This is the first 5 minutes I've had to myself all day.
Not like it was a bad day or anything, it's just that I wish I could have a little more alone time to cool down, y'know?
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Today, all I've done is put on make-up [I've gotten back into wearing it, don't ask me why, 'cause I don't even know] & play kids computer games.
First it was Pajama Sam 2, Thunder & Lightning Aren't So Frightening.
Then Freddi Fish, the Case of the Missing Kelp Seeds.
Then Putt-Putt Goes to the Moon.
Then Freddi Fish 5, the Case of the Creature of Coral Cove.
I'm just that bored today, I guess.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
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We've been given a date that I shall start school.
Monday.
Yes, this Monday.
It's becoming real.
I can't believe it.
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Last night was HELLA FUN.
It was a ska show.
And one of Eggplant's last shows, I hear. :[
My friends Candy, Liz, and Matt were there.
My skankin' legs hurt still.
Even though I wasn't skanking so much as bouncing and dancing in general.
Seeing Eggplant again was all good.
And seeing Candy was awesome, too. I hadn't seen her in so long!
Andrew wasn't there, though. He's cool, and shoots film as opposed to digital. WOO!
Scout was going to come, but she canceled because she felt shitty.
Which I totally understand.
I empathize.
The lineup was four bands I didn't know, plus In The Face & Eggplant Dance-Off!
Even the four bands I didn't know were awesome.
I didn't bring my camera last night, mostly because I forgot it!
Hannah brought her friend Sarah.
It was pretty much awesome.
Amazing.
Wonderful.
<3
Although, I didn't get to sleep until about 1 last night.
Which sucked because I had to wake up earlier than usual for an appointment today.
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Today.
Today I had to get up early [meaning ~7] to go to a dentist appointment.
Fortunately, my mouth is in very good shape!
YAY!
And since we were in the area, Mom & I went to the mall.
We went to Sears and picked up a bathing suit for each of us.
And then we went to Sephora to get two shades of eyeshadow I'd been looking at.
I'm not wearing they eyeshadow right now, but rather another eyeshadow I got from Sephora a different day. It's green. And it came in a package with lip gloss, too.
I dunno why, but I've been getting back into wearing makeup.
Weird.
+++++
Anyway, that's the past two days in a nutshell for ya.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings.
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Saturday, July 14th, 2007
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So, I'm technically not going to have drum today, but we're going over there to have fun with Heather & Justin.
And later, I may go to get my ears re-pierced at one of the local piercing/tattoo shops.
I'm kind of scared. I hope I don't cry.
I'm tired of not wearing earrings, though. My original piercings closed up because I never wore earrings, but I want to wear them again.
So, I've decided, since yesterday Hannah got her second hole re-pierced [it had closed up for the same reason], I'll just get mine over with.
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Rollercoaster ride.
That's what it feels like.
I'm up and I'm down.
Not bipolar, but close.
I'm happy, then upset.
I'm unstable.
I kind of feel shitty.
And I don't think I'll be doing drum lesson today.
Last night at the mall, some girl at Claire's asked, "Are you Bekah?"
She knew me through Adam and MySpace.
Weird, huh?
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I wish I was like Kendra.
I wish I was car-free, going to turn 18, not afraid of getting a tattoo, more artistic/creative, a Canon Rebel owner, politically active, attractive, etc.
I'm not.
Dear Kendra,
You rock.
Love,
Rebekah
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Okay, so this morning at the doctor's office, they ran out of shots that I need, and so we said for them to call us when they get them in.
So they called Mom.
They're in.
I have to go get a shot soon.
I HATE SHOTS.
Shoot.
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| Subject: | School, etc. |
| Time: | 9:48 am. |
| Mood: |  apathetic. | | Music: | "Always & Never" by Coheed & Cambria, "Classifieds" by The Academy Is... |
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So, if you didn't already know, I was accepted into the summer program of a residential school in Mass.
I had to get a physical and dental exam before I can go, so we did the physical today.
AT EIGHT IN THE MORNING.
I'm usually not up until at LEAST 8:30.
I really don't want to go to this school, but I think that it's a better option than what I'm going through at my other school.
No one is cooperating with us.
We even got a letter that I hadn't finished my 3rd quarter grade for English, and that I'm to read "M. Butterfly" and do some essays to finish up the grade.
I think that it's all bullshit. My 3rd quarter grade was fine--the only thing I didn't do in English was my mid-term.
I hope I'm home for when Dan comes home from Florida. I kind of miss him.
Yesterday was a good day, on a lighter note.
We went to Portsmouth for a psychiatrist visit for each of us [Hannah & I, that is].
And we dropped off some 120 film at Eagle Photo for developing.
Then we went to Torrid in the mall there, which is the plus size clothing store. I love it there. Things FIT there.
Then, we picked up my pictures from Eagle.
And then we went to Odiorne Point. And that was fun.
I got some okay pictures from there, and they're up on Flickr.
That's pretty much all I have to say.
At least I keep you guys somewhat updated, right?
Gah.
POST SCRIPT:
I had this idea to keep you guys updated while I'm away at the no-personal-computer school: I'll start using the voice posting option here on LJ.
Because I want to learn how to use it, I'm going to do a voice post now to get the hang of it.
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| Subject: | Untitled Journal Entry |
| Time: | 8:13 pm. |
| Mood: | aren't I always anxious?. | | Music: | Pandora.com's "Reel Big Fish Radio Station," beeecause I need me some ska. |
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The past few days were funny... Like, this past weekend.
And yesterday was funny.
I need some ska to happy me up.
-turns on the Pandora.com Reel Big Fish station-
I don't even know how to start.
Let's see...
Umm...
Saturday!
We'll start with Saturday!
Saturday night, there was a concert at the Sad.
Dan was going to come, but he didn't want to in the end, and Adam called, asking if I was going and if I could take him.
So we took Adam.
And it was awesome.
I got some pretty decent pictures of the bands, some of which are now up on my Flickr.
I asked Paul Dano if I could use the pictures of the band on my photo site, and he said yes. So I did. Coolio.
Elizah, Cathy, and Jess ended up being there, and Adam found a
The lineup was as follows:
Shades of Skin
The Hungry Hungry Hypocrites
The Minus Scale
The Midnight Renewal
Mook
And they were all pretty damn wonderful.
It was really awesome.
I took decent pictures.
Sunday was restful.
Today.
Today was hard.
We went to Mass to see the residential school we're considering if Parker doesn't work out for me.
...And I don't especially want to talk about it.
It sounded okay, I guess.
But I don't like the idea of being away from my parents for weeks upon weeks...
What can I say? I'm a Mommy's Girl.
I also don't like that they don't allow cell phones [they have a pay phone though], and they don't allow computers outside of the classroom.
How the heck am I supposed to update my Flickr or journal?!
I can't just abandon them.
And I also use computers and/or cell phone to keep in touch with my friends.
I also really don't like the idea of living in a dorm with a bunch of other girls that I don't know or especially like.
At least they have constant support where I need it.
Like if I'm having a bad day, etc.
But... what if I don't like their counselors/therapists/shrinks/psychiatrists? What will happen then?
I'm not even accepted yet.
We won't know that until Thursday.
Whatever.
I'm going to TRY NOT TO STRESS OUT ABOUT ALL OF THIS.
Tomorrow, we're going over to Eagle Photo because I have therapy right next to it.
I'll pick up my latest Holga roll, see if it came out any good.
The day after tomorrow is the Fourth.
I hope that our good family friends can come to fireworks with us.
I feel like I need to cry so bad, but nothing comes out.
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I don't know.
pretty good...
almost crying and I dunno why.